9/11 will always be a day of change for me. It marks a change in American culture and perspective that will forever bring focus to many people’s lives. Today also marks the one year anniversary of God sovereignly moving in my families life.
It was about 3 years ago that June Evans spoke a word over me that has just stuck with me and I’ve seen it begin to come to pass. She said, “ I see it like an explosion of power. All these things that you’ve been struggling with will begin to fall off of you and you will begin walking in your calling.”
The very day I made the decision to move to Texas was probably one of the hardest days of my life. I was a very timid person unless pushed to far. I think God used circumstances in my life , to ‘press’ me in the direction He wanted me to go. When I hung up the phone with the head of HR for BHM I was physically shaking. I disregarded my emotions and decided to that day fully rely upon, trust in God for my life and the care of my family. Sure, we can say that should happen daily, but how many of us ‘really’ rely entirely upon God daily?
I had no clue what would happen when I got to the next step in Texas. I’d never been in a city like Dallas, and now that I’m here I don’t think there is another city like Dallas.
Since I’ve been here I’ve met some amazing people and have become friends with a few who I’m not really sure why they consider me a friend. I’ve sat under some of the most anointed teachers of the Bible of our generation: from Robert Morris at Gateway Church to Charles Capps and the Copelands at Eagle Mountain to Steve Fish at James Avenue Church to Pastor Wead at BHM. I can’t really explain how much I’ve grown.
When I first arrived at BHM I had some ideas of how I thought it would be to work here. For the most part I was totally wrong. It is a privilege to work with the organization and at first I didn’t know how to interpret or react to the changes of working for a corporate production environment to an organization that serves. One day on the commute to work, I just decided any attitude I had about it was incorrect and all the teaching I had heard in my life about ‘ministry’ just clicked. I decided to disregard the surface of circumstances and not get bogged down in a selfish, me attitude and look for opportunities to serve. Though it sometimes, rather often is limited, I changed from being inwardly focused to being outward focused. I knew God had poured into me, now was time for me to pour it out. I can’t say anything fantastic has happened as “ministry” but in approaching work, prayer, everything with the purpose and attitude of serving and pouring more of the things I’ve struggled with have fallen off of me.